Kayak Therapy: Man Sets Off on Yearlong Trek to Paddle Through Depression
In May 2019, Nick Ray leapt into the sea from a Scotland ferry in an attempt to end his life. Three years later, he has embraced the country’s expansive coastline not as an escape from life, but as a new beginning to it.
Editor’s note: This article was originally published on Explorersweb.
Nick Ray ventured into the ocean on Sunday from Tobermory, Scotland, with a fully packed sea kayak. He plans to spend the next 12 months exploring the country’s famously beautiful coast — while offering honest commentary about his struggle with depression.
He left on Aug. 28, on his 59th birthday, with plans to return on the day he turns 60.
“For 365 days, I’ll live from my kayak, self-sufficiently and simply, camping wherever I reach every day,” Ray wrote on his website. “For 12 months, I’ll explore the incredible coastline of Scotland, following my heart, my inquisitiveness, and my dreams.”
A longtime guide for Outward Bound, Ray finished several impressive kayaking trips over the last few years. That includes a 1,839-mile kayak journey around Scotland in 2015. And there’s plenty more where that came from: the country’s wealth of islands means it offers an incredible 11,646 miles of coastline, according to Marine Scotland.
For his latest trip, Ray plans to eschew specific goals for a more whimsical approach. He looks forward to just letting himself explore.
“The nature of this adventure is to not set goals,” Ray said. “Where I paddle will be up to me and the weather. I don’t have goals of achieving high mileage, making notable open sea crossings, or specifically reaching defined locations. I have dreams and aspirations, islands to explore, wildlife I’d love to encounter, and people I’d enjoy meeting.”
Dolphins! I couldn’t believe it when I heard them surfacing behind me when I was crossing from Ardnamurchan to the Isle of Mull today. pic.twitter.com/l3o1uD1Esm
— Nick Ray (@LifeAfloat) May 30, 2021
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Kayaking as Therapy
Originally from Zimbabwe, Ray has developed a loyal following online. Not only through videos of his incredible wildlife encounters, but also because of his frank discussions about living with depression.
In his lengthy blog posts, Ray seemingly holds nothing back, detailing his 2019 suicide attempt and the ways he continues to battle depression.
He has more than 36,000 Twitter followers and recently started a new YouTube channel.
Across platforms, Ray writes in a candid voice, reflecting on his ongoing struggle, and the way that kayaking helps him cope.
“Fighting depression is determined hard work. It can be exhausting and right now, today and over recent days, I feel exhausted,” Ray wrote in May. “When I’m worn out, as I feel I am at the moment, suicidal thinking is very much an aspect of my reality.”
Ray told the BBC that he doesn’t want to come across as a kind of influencer showing off a life that’s out of reach for most people.
He has continued to publish about his journey primarily because of the positive response from those following him.
“But folks came back to me to say that I am helping,” Ray said. “It was really lovely to hear that … people feel buoyed by that.”
An Exciting Year Ahead
Ray packed the essentials into his sea kayak, including a tent, flares, and stove — everything that he will need for a year of camping.
He doesn’t have much to be worried about, given that Ray literally wrote the book on kayaking around Scotland. He published a guide about his 2015 journey to every lifeboat station around Scotland. Available on Amazon, the book provides all the info necessary for someone to follow in his wake.
It won’t be an easy trip, but Ray believes that hardship and discomfort make the journey worthwhile.
“I’m not entirely looking forward to journeying and camping through a Scottish winter, but I’m relishing the challenge,” he said.
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